There a so much talk about work/life balance. The thought is that it is vital to higher productivity, mental and physical health and strengthening of relationships sounds great!
I have avoided detaching from business, routine life and relaxation most of my life. There were always excuses; the big project or deal will fall apart, clients will go so,where else, I will miss opportunity…. but this was a false narrative that I learned innocently from my father. He “selflessly” worked non-stop; when very young, trips to my mom’s parents, when I as older, trips with my mom to Europe. It does matter what the reason, true or not, he was a working martyr .
So, as we all learn from the behavior of those of influence around us, I too, have lived as a working martyr. I may have gone on more “vacations”, played more golf rounds, but the sword of the work battle was always by my side.
Fear and lack of trust. Fear that all will fail, fear that I was not deserving, fear of what others might think. And lack of trust? Not trusting those around me to take care of things, fear that all would be free track upon my return, fear.
Today, I sit by the ocean. Disconnected (more than usual) from the routine. Life is going on. I have learned to trust my teammates, trust my clients and acknowledge that it is okay to disconnect. Will there be a challenge or two to take care of when I return? Of course. But no scorched earth.
The ego driven fear and lack of trust that holds us in our cycles of life is far more destructive then the small hiccups from disconnecting.
I am happy I have. It still a long road, but as time goes by, the road is getting shorted. Now is the time to take a detour or two ant breath.